Today I feel so depress :-( ...
I tried to meditated in the morning coached by the apps on my cell phone call "CALM" but it still not working.
After taking a shower, I do my routine plus listening to "Somewhere I belong" by LINKIN PARK per my psychiatrist order to make me feel good.
And I forced myself to go to the therapy today.
(Thanks GOD I made it because talked to him made me a little bit better)
Is it wrong if I feel like I have two identity? Is it wrong if I hate who I am? And I feel free to be someone else with the new identity?
Why is this so complicated? Sometimes I don't even know who am I?
Sometimes I don't even want to be me.
Are you as confused as I am? Because I am confused also. I see something that is not suppose to be seen. I heard something that is not suppose to be heard.
I do something that is not suppose to be doing.
I am tired ... Tired of thinking... Tired of figuring out ...
I think I will go to sleep...
Good night, Sammy