Judge ME !
You must know the words "Don't Judge book by its Cover" but we always judge people by the way they look anyway. Why? Because That's the way we are. Since Adam and Eve, we were born like that. Someone even said that if Able wasn't get kill, he will be gay because he was so soft! WTF!!! Seriously!
Ok! So today I want to talk about me (again... !) I want you to judge me (like other people who judge me on my interviews) Or my lovely bullies who might think that I am really worthy to be bully. Don't get me wrong, I really thank you for them because they make me who I am now. I learn a lot from them. I even sign up to the self defense class thanks to them.
But yeah, I want you to judge me, I know that I am not a regular asian woman. I have a curve, my hair is pink, I dress different, I act different, I don't believe in married, as a matter of fact, I don't believe in love at all.
But despite all of that appearance I want you to know who is really me. So please tell me what do you know about me.
AMAZON --- Do it or NOT???
On October 14,2017 I had invitation to attend the seminar at the Westin Hotel by Seller Playbook to talk about selling in Amazon.comFor the people who know me well, you must know that I am the person with lots of ambitious and curious. I am a Wonder Woman (he he he he or Curious Woman I guess). So here we go..... we going to talk about Amazon now. Do or don't....
The guy that talk about it, He said his name is Matthew and his age is 60 something years old. Like a person who selling stuff, he said that he has been doing that and now he's free, he can just sitting at the beach and cha ching, the money coming to his account.... But wait... is it real???
Amazon huh?? People buying stuff everyday (hmmm true true.... I buying stuff too)
But how much you have to spend to start?....
He said,,,, it's depends (HUH???)
He said.... some people start at $100... some people start at $1000.... depends on their knowledge..... (ok..ok... go on..)
So he told us again ...
First... You need to find the stuff that :
Second... You need to find :
After he explain each point, he make the point that we need to make sure score the credible suppliers, finding fast moving product, maintaining good account health, and pricing goal.
In the end he offer every one of us if we want to learn with him about Amazon deeper one on one to sign up. But I think I will go find a book on Amazon.com maybe they have Amazon for dummies (lol) And so far I think I get what I need to know. Thank you Matthew for shared your knowledge about Amazon to me.
Fashion Influencer / Digital LA by Ctrl Colective
On October 11,2017 I have the opportunity to attend one of the best seminar about the fashion. In order to the Fashion week, Digital LA have the chance to gather The Fashion Brand and The Fashion Influencers together and have us who are in the fashion industry or have the interest in the fashion industry to have the opportunity to learn what is the fashion brand and the fashion influencers really about.
So I am so glad to be a member of Digital LA. I have the opportunity to attend this seminar and learn from them. Like usual, Kevin, from Digital LA really pro active.
From this seminar, I learn that it is ok to failed but don't ever give up. Everybody start from small. Nobody start to be star right away. And for the lifestyle as it is now, the texting is better than e-mail or phone call.
For the brand, is it ok to be picky to choose your influencers because not all influencer is good. If one influencer work good for one brand, not necessarily that influencer will work good for your brand.
For brand, you need to check your ROI and buzz.
So yes... either you are Fashion brand or an influencer (like me) this seminar give you a lot of informations. This is a little bit that I can share with you. I really encourage you to join every seminar if you have time. You will never know what you learn from the people that already success with what their doing.
Thank you Control Collective for make it happened
LA County Probation Officer Accused of Sex Abuse Pleads Guilty to Assaulting Girls at Juvenile Camp
LA County approves $3.9-million settlement for minor assaulted in Juvenile hall
On September 20, 2017 Oscar Calderon Jr., 33, was immediately sentenced to a year in jail after pleading guilty in downtown courtroom to two counts of assault according to the Los Angeles Country District Attorney's office.
Prosecutors accuses Oscar Calderon Jr. (the deputy probation officer) of making sexual overtures and inappropriately touching four teens inside Camp Scudder in Santa Clarita. Calderon was arrested in January and charged with four counts of assault under color of authority and two counts of lewd and lascivious acts with a child. Prosecutors said that the victims ranged age from 15 to 18 and the abuse began in 2014.
According to attorney Erin Darling, who is representing one of the victims, Darling’s client described the year she spent living in fear of Calderon, who she said constantly groped her while threatening to give her poor progress reports and delay her release if she did not comply. Darling said supervisors at the Camp Scudder facility ignored complaints from his client’s family and allowed the abuse to go on.
A young woman has her handcuffs removed inside the Camp Scudder juvenile facility in Santa Clarita. A deputy probation officer pleaded guilty to sexually abusing inmates at the facility
Thursday early morning.... Again I wake up from my sleep because I miss you so much. I still don't know where you at.
Do you ever love someone but you don't even know if you ever gonna meet again or not. I cannot fight this feeling but again I know this is going nowhere. What I can do is just let the time do their job and have them take this feeling away finally.
I wish I know where you are so I can tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you. I just be grateful to GOD because I still remember your face, your smile, your eyes, your voices, and the touch of your hand until now.
I hope you are okay wherever you are. I hope you are happy. I hope the wind can send the message to you that I miss you.....
Goodnight, Love <3
Today is Wednesday .... Ordinary day... woke up with the bad news that somebody really leave me. My heart really are broken in pieces. He really broke my heart but I don't think he even realize it because I never even have chance told him yet.
Life is just a dream... Life is not real... He told me that. He agree with me when I told him that I feel like this life is like a MATRIX movie. I love him because he the only one that understand me. Now he is gone. I don't even know where is he now. The only thing that I know from him is his name.
I will wait until I wake up from this dream. This heart is still hurt so bad. But I believe when I wake up, I will be ok. I will just wait until I wake up.
I hope you happy wherever you are....
Today I got home from OC. I'm sorry that I forgot to tell you that I was spend the weekend in OC. Diego gave me the unforgettable Birthday present ever.
He really spoiled me with the room at Hilton and dinner at Mix Lounge.
And also the day at Disneyland.
I want to say that my weekend was perfect but I can't. In the middle happiness I had slightly PTSD. My heart just hurt so bad, I feel like there's a knife stabbed to my chest. It just hurt so bad. Poor Diego, He didn't know what to do beside just let me cried.
Today I still don't feel good. I make couple friends and I went to yoga also did some meditation. I won't lie that my heart still hurt. It's getting better, not like yesterday but still hurt.
If only I know how to fix this things. I keep pray and pray to God to make me happy again. I know that a lot of people took advantage of me and hurt me before but now God give me a lot of new friends that loves me and spoils me. I should thankful for that.
I love YOU
I thank YOU
Good night,Sammy !!
Today is a better day than yesterday. I had a breakfast with Diego this morning. We talked about our plan for this weekend. I can't wait to spend this weekend with him.
Diego is such a good friend... without him, I don't think I can't get through this ....
Sometime I feel like when I wish somebody to like me, he didn't like me back but in the other hand when I don't wish other people to like me, they like me back and give me their love more than I can hold.
Today I also had a surprise from David, my new friend who took me to Frank and Son last weekend and took me to eat ramen at Gomen ramen. He texted me and he told me that he's been played and took care of his little nephew. So yeah.. that's it....
By the way... I also put my selfie on my Instagram (finally after a while)...
And now I want to go sleep... Good night, World....
Good Night, Sammy
Today I feel so depress :-( ...
I tried to meditated in the morning coached by the apps on my cell phone call "CALM" but it still not working.
After taking a shower, I do my routine plus listening to "Somewhere I belong" by LINKIN PARK per my psychiatrist order to make me feel good.
And I forced myself to go to the therapy today.
(Thanks GOD I made it because talked to him made me a little bit better)
Is it wrong if I feel like I have two identity? Is it wrong if I hate who I am? And I feel free to be someone else with the new identity?
Why is this so complicated? Sometimes I don't even know who am I?
Sometimes I don't even want to be me.
Are you as confused as I am? Because I am confused also. I see something that is not suppose to be seen. I heard something that is not suppose to be heard.
I do something that is not suppose to be doing.
I am tired ... Tired of thinking... Tired of figuring out ...
I think I will go to sleep...
Good night, Sammy
Good Evening, My Diary...
Since I woke up this morning everything that I heard, I saw, I read, all was about Eclipse ... Everybody so crazy and exciting about it. But honestly, I don't really care about the eclipse seriously. I'm not sure if this is because of my depression issue or my bipolar, but meh...
Eclipse or not... Monday is still Monday for me. I still have to deal with my own problem. But of course, I always ready with my poker face when somebody ask me "Did you see the eclipse this morning?" and I will answer the question with the smile and talk to him or her like I care about it so I won't offend him or her :-)
So these are some of the pictures that my mom took :
My lovely diary, today is my first day join the Feldenkrais Yoga or what they call Awareness thru Movement yoga. I really like this yoga, I confident that this yoga will help with my PTSD that caused by the bully at my job.
Today Diego told me that he will take me to Disneyland in the next 2 weeks to celebrate my belated Birthday (I'm so happy) ..... Yayyyy......
My Best friend,Sunny suddenly text me. She said that she will also take me to dinner for my belated birthday (Wow! What happen???)
Ok, my sweet diary...
It's getting late... Time for me to take my medicine and go to sleep. Since my class was ending last week, we have break for 1 week. So I don't need to study this week. I will see you again tomorrow. Like always, before you say good night to other people, try to say good night to yourself first.
Good night,Sammy !
Just an ordinary woman who try to find my true happiness.